If I am honest, I would say close friendships are something I long for on a daily basis.
In my case, staying at home with kids can sometimes be lonely, making it easy to feel sorry for myself. Wishing that someone would invite me to hang out. That someone else would initiate something with me.
But lately I feel like the Lord has been calling me out of my walls that I protect myself in, and asking me to trust him. Asking me to risk feeling rejected, and initiate with others. Because if I am going to have these friendships that I want, I am going to have to put myself out there. I am going to have to step outside of what feels comfortable, and trust Jesus. He will be there with me through the whole process. When I feel awkward, or misunderstood. Relationships might not go how I think they should. I can walk with him through all the messiness. I don't have to be jealous when others hang out because, he knows how I need to connect with others. He will bring the opportunities for me.
But I am going to need to step out.
It may be uncomfortable, but I won't get the relationships and closeness that I want or that Jesus has for me if I don't take the initiative.
Be brave. He will walk with you through this as well. You can trust him.