I was thinking today after I talked with a friend. There are times when I feel so scatter-brained, like I can’t control my thoughts. That makes it hard to pay attention to others when they are talking to me. Plus being in a room where there are a lot of people creates a huge distraction for me. At church today, I asked the Lord why is it so hard for me to pay attention, and stay focused on others while they are talking? It was as if I heard the Lord ask me, if I had asked for his help in this area. Don’t think that I have much. I need your help Lord. But it needs to be a continual thing throughout the day, not just a do-it-once type of thing. Each moment focused on you. Being present in the world, but in the back of my mind knowing you are with me as I go throughout the day. Not just in this specific area, but in every area of my life may you be acknowledged. I need that, especially being a pastor’s wife and mom. Most of the time as well, I want to hide at the church, so not everyone knows who I am. But what if I am called to more than just blending in, and not being known. What if I am to seek others out, and get involved with those around me. What does this look like? What can you do through me Lord? And being a mom to my kids, give me the strength and energy Lord to pour into my kids. I struggle each day, especially right now to give them my best. I feel like I have no clue what I am doing each day, yet I am going to be responsible for 4 of these little ones in a couple months. I don’t want to scar them. I need wisdom to raise them in this world. Help me to remember you during the day Lord, because I need you.