I had a hard time deciding what I wanted to wear today. I wanted to be comfortable, but look cute, so I picked out what I felt like was. Later I started having doubts about my choices, and was toying with the idea of going to my room and trying on something else. This starts a vicious cycle for me, with me being frustrated, and still not satisfied.
Who am I trying to impress, or where am I trying to get my worth from?
Lately, I have been trying to live out of the full approval that I have in the Lord. Living in freedom is far better than carrying the chains of trying fill a void through ways that won't satisfy.
I am realizing that sometimes I try to be good enough to meet my own unrealistic, perfectionist expectations.
Why isn't it enough that the one who created me lavishes his love over me unconditionally? Why am I so hard on myself?
Giving myself grace is not an easy thing. I feel like I am constantly battling my inner voice that tells me to keep trying until I find the next thing that will satisfy me.
Who knew that self-acceptance could be something I could struggle so much with. Even as much as feeling accepted by others.
But this I know….if my creator and redeemer can look upon me with love, and call me his own, then I should be able to trust what he says about me. Not rely on my own skewed view of what makes me worth something.
Praying that this truth would sink deeply down into our souls and become what we believe.
Praying that each one of us would be able to see ourselves through the eyes of Jesus.